You Are my Sunshine

You may be wandering why I posted the song "You Are My Sunshine" on here but, I have my reasons.

Four months ago yesterday I lost my Great Aunt. She was very very dear to me. She was more my Grandma then Great Aunt. She had been ill for sometime but she progressed and was back to the nursing home. 2 months before she passed she started to go downhill again and she was placed in ICU for 2 weeks. While in ICU she could have nothing to eat or drink so knowing very little I started to prepare myself for the loss cause I knew that it was going to happen sooner than later even though I didn't want it to. The first time I went to see her in ICU was terrifying for me because all she was doing was laying there and she wouldn't respond to me, I didn't know if she knew I was there or not and if she did know I was there did she know who I was because here I was in a gown, mask, and gloves. It had to be terrifying for her when she did open her eyes to see someone standing there like that. Everyday for two weeks I went and saw her while she was there. I knew in my heart that she didn't have much time. After being in ICU for 2 weeks they sent her back to the nursing home to lay there and pass because there was nothing more they could do for her. On Wednesday July 9th I received a phone call but didn't answer because I was at work so when I listened to the voicemail it was message saying that they were giving her less than 2 hours to live. Everyone at work tried to get me to leave and go see her but I couldn't bring myself to it so I stayed at work worrying myself sick but trying to keep in mind that she would be at peace and wouldn't be suffering anymore. Bless Aunt Babe because she's a trooper she somehow kept going. On Tuesday July 15th I had class in Jasper and during my whole class something just didn't feel right to me. I wasn't at peace with myself so I brought myself to go see her. When I walked into that room at the nursing home I was just heartbroken. It wasn't my Aunt Babe laying there. Where had she gone? What had happened? I remember this day as if it were yesterday and everytime I think about it I get a tear.... I walked in and said "Aunt Babe, Aunt Babe" she didn't respond at all. I just started to cry. I was bawling, the nurse walked in and said "Babe, you have a visitor. (there was no response) Babe, Eleanor, Eleanor you have a visitor. There is a beautiful young lady here who wants to see you. She wants to talk to you. Eleanor, Chelsea is here to see you." The nurse got called out of the room and told me that she would be right back to be with me because she knew I was upset. When she was gone I held Aunt Babe's hand and told her these exact words, "Aunt Babe I love you and I want you to promise me that you will be my GUARDIAN ANGEL and that you will be at peace. All I want for you is peace. I don't want to see you suffering as you are." When I told her this it was like there was a sudden relief and sudden peace of mind especially when Aunt Babe moved her arm as if she had angel wings and was flying. This tore me up inside but I knew that I had told her I loved her one last time. On July 19th at 5:00 in the morning I left for Kansas to go to a surprise birthday party for my Aunt Venita (Daddy Jeff's aunt) and as soon as I arrived in Kansas we went into a t-shirt shop and my phone rang. It was my dad (Keith) and I knew what he was going to tell me. I just walked outside and sat down and tears rolled down my face. Aunt Babe went to rest in heaven around 2:00 on Saturday July 19th. I love her dearly and miss her each and every day. She was the only family on my dad's (Keith) side of the family that I was very close to and had anything to do with. R.I.P. Aunt Babe.... I love you so much and know that you are keeping your promise to me and being my Guardian Angel.... You Are My Sunshine forever just as you would sing to me when I was a little girl sitting on your lap or painting your fingernails. I'll remember you forever and always. You Are My Sunshine My Only Sunshine You Make Me Happy When Skies Are Gray You Will Never Know Dear How Much I LOVE YOU... So Please Don't Take My Sunshine Away.

This is my Great Aunt Babe, me, and Alayna at the Assisted Living in Vincennes before she was place in the nursing home. This one of the very few pictures I have of me with her.

Research Rush

So today started out with me waking up not feeling well but what is expected with this wonderful Indiana weather when you have allergies. I had my discussion class and learned of my test grade (it wasn't a week later) but I've decided that studying for this test for a total of 10 hours really didn't help me. I didn't do as bad as I thought I may but it was still discouraging when I knew that I had studied so hard to achieve a good grade and was so close to getting that grade. I guess that just means I need to study some extra hours for my next test. After myy discussion class I went to Comp 2 and was informed that the rough draft of my 10-12 page research paper is due on Monday.... MONDAY when am I going to have time to write a 10-12 page paper when I have to work tonight and school tomorrow then clinical all morning Friday and class in the afternoon then work, and work all weekend. I guess that's what I will do when I get off work Friday and Saturday since Gage will be at Ball State on Friday and at his grandparents the rest of the weekend. Wow 10-12 pages is a lot to write even though I already have all the research done and the outline done. I don't even want to begin but I will have to sooner than later. I'll get it done though no reason to stress it. Well I'm off to go to work then to come home and work on some homework.

Test Grade

I can't figure out why the professors can't post our grade on our test until a week after we take it. All it does is cause more stress in my life :( err..... I know that I need a break really bad and will be completely grateful for Thanksgiving being here.

On top of stressing out about my test score my car wouldn't start this morning. I knew I had to get gas cause my car was on EMPTY and I wouldn't have made it to school and while getting gas my car died. OH WHAT A GREAT DAY!!!!!!! That means I need to get a new battery soon hopefully tonight but we'll see... hopefully I'll get to Gage tonight since I won't see him all weekend. I've got to get going right now though it's time to get headed back to class. Hope everyone has a good day!

Oh What A Day

I was woke up by my mom at 4:30 this morning telling me that I needed to get up she thought we were going to have to call the fire department. I was in a dead sleep and didn't even hear the fire alarm going off, I do know that the first thing I thought was I've got to get Princess, my cell phone, my purse, a blanket, and most if important my books for school (let me tell you I could live without having to carry those around but I sure wouldn't want to have to pay for them again). We all thought oh how great our house is all decorated for Christmas due to the fact that mom has to work every weekend until after Christmas so that would just be our luck for something like this to happen. We looked all over the house for the hot smell that we smelt and saw nothing so Dad got his ladder out and looked in the attic there was nothing there. Come to find out in the closet right across from my bedroom is the furnace and the smell was coming from there so what do we do.... that's right turn it off (BRRRRRRRRR) the smell starts to lighten up and back to bed I went (not a pleasant person when you wake me up) I cuddled all up in my fleece blanket with the puppy and was sound asleep again.... Luckily there was no big fire or anything. As I had said before all the Christmas decorations are up and they look really good. I'm ready for it to be Thanksgiving so that we can turn the big tree in the living room on and the outside icicle lights on. I've already got my tree turned on in my bedroom... I'll get some pictures of the decorations posted soon.


I had a Nursing test today and let me tell you it wasn't easy. I'm praying that I did decent on it and didn't completely blow it. It was alot to know and what I thought would be on the test wasn't so I'll wait a week like always to find out my score so a whole week of stress all because I don't know my test score. I'll be glad when Christmas break gets here just so I can relax for a little while. I probably won't have much time to do a lot because of work but that is just fine with me. I need the hours while I can get them.

I'm off to bed now for what I hope is a goodnight's sleep to get up at 6:30 and get ready for a long day of school. 9:00 to 4:50 then it'll be an evening full of homework and I hope to get to see Gage sometime tomorrow since I won't see him all weekend.

Chelsea & Gage Prom 2008

This is Gage and I. I was lucky enough to get to go to prom again with Gage! We had a blast and made a lot of great memories! Definately won't forget them. One thing I do regret though is not having my camera with me as I walked down the hallway to see Gage for the first time when I was prettied up..... the look on his face was PRICELESS and I will never forget it. We had a blast taking a lot of pictures....... Gage had a blast and was getting really into it... that was fun... We have many more great memories to make together and I can't wait... I always have so much fun when I'm around him even when we are doing absolutely nothing. It's nice to have someone just to talk to whenever I want and know that they are always there for me. We could be sitting in a room with nothing but the walls around us and somehow make each other laugh and act silly enough to make it fun...

1st blog

Well here I am..... Definately new to this whole blogging thing! Anyone has any good tips on how to do anything just let me know.. Wow has this week been stressful. I had a few days off of work which was good but it still was a long long week. I have so much to do with school it seems as if I can never keep caught up. All my Nursing classes are going good, requires a lot of studying but I'll make it through because of all the support that I have from my family... I've got to run for now but I'll be back soon..